I just died.

anyone who buy this for me, would be the very special person in my heart. haha lol cam mintak mintak, kidding. i hope to gather this soon, after my spm. cause i literally dont have anyone to think of, so i wont be thinking of something stupid that makes me burst my tears. say no more! each book is RM139++ ugh sooooooo mahal. but i'll try to kumpul. thats my promise to my self. haha. when i have this, no more disturbance k! haaa padan muka. i will just spent my time here. anyway, selamat hari raya readers! i seek forgiveness if i may have hurt yall. have a good one :)

what did i do wrong? where did i went wrong?

Is it wrong for me just to seek your attention? your love and your care? i just want you to notice me, care about me for once. just a little bit of love, thats it. i miss the old you, totally. now in your heart, most probably too much hatred for me. i just crave some of your times, and it all screwed bcs of that stupid status update. u like to use harsh word, u dont talk politely and alluringly to me anymore, u used rough tone, and made me feel that i better stay away from you.. i'm not a happiness to you is it? tell me, i'll back off. i cried so badly after the incident, then my mom called and asked 'ko kenapa nangis?' then i said 'mana ada, org kan selsema' 'oh ok ok' i dont know what else to answer.. i hate it when it comes to this, i pray to god everyday that things would get back as how it used to be. amin.

Damn.

Ya Allah, rasa sakit sangat hati dengan Nadia tu. ugh. rasa nak tumbuk muka dia pls. memang tak ada perasaan langsung. Girl, one day you'll feel how i felt, pasti punya. tunggu jelah giliran kau, dah cakap elok elok, tak reti malu jugak. Go away pun susah sangat ke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Semakin hari, semakin melebih, i dont know what to call you, bcs i dont have the right to do so. so i respect you, but you dont respect me at all. siap buat walpaper gambar dd. sweet nak mampus lah k? K memang aku ni tunggul, sbb aku respect kau, and aku bukan jenis perempuan yang perang mulut je lebih. tapi semakin hari, kau semakin melebih, ya allah, memang menguji kesabaran. then pura2 baik, dah tahu third party tu salah sama sekali, tapi buat bodoh je. you know he is somebody's but hmm. aku taknak cakap apa2. this is holy month. semoga kau rasa. and cuba ada perasaan sikit. thanks, bye. f u

Only Allah knows what i went through during Ramadhan. This precious month has shown a lot of things, how people, it teaches me not to believe anyone but yourself. Thank you Allah :')

I know You always heard me, and plan the best for me, I thank You for everything. this things, i only shared with Nurfatin Atikah binti Nordin, she knew how i felt..

She has given me a lot of opinion, and i accept it wisely. i dont know why i am so stupid for trusting everyone so quickly. Enough is enough. He broke my trust. and it can never be healed. Thats it. I just let things happen. I accept.. Ya Allah give me strength. i believe someone who has been betrayed, there is qada' and qadar. Time heal everything. I hold that.

*MAN DOWN

Third party.

you know what that means in a relationship. nobody want that to happen. mungkin ini takdir tuhan for me. i accept it strongly. i thank God for her present. i finally realised and at least learned something. it hurts like motherfucker hurts, but yeah i'm fine. you know what i do? i hold back. everything. it is not my thing to like, burst everything to evryone. nah, i just did what i did those days. hold hold back as i could. Insyaallah. you know what my dream is? nak pergi Mekah. nak sangat, kalau ada duit nak sangat buat umrah anf feel the most calm situation and environment to be in this world. ada sesiapa nak bawak I tak? haha perasan. duit pun tak ada, ilmu pun tak cukup lagi. kalau ada okay gakkkk. hahah. joking, i just made tempura prawn, tapi still tak jadi and fed up this is my fifth attempt tau! urgh pastu terendam tangan dalam minyak. terbaik! bye assalamualaikum! :)

I'll show the prettiest girl and inspiring girl ever

I know right she is so beautiful inside and out. for those who knows her, don't tell her that i stole her pictre please i didnt mean to hurt anything. just wanted to say how a young girl can be so polite. Suka sangat cara dia pakai! She made me want to dress the same way..