Damn.

Ya Allah, rasa sakit sangat hati dengan Nadia tu. ugh. rasa nak tumbuk muka dia pls. memang tak ada perasaan langsung. Girl, one day you'll feel how i felt, pasti punya. tunggu jelah giliran kau, dah cakap elok elok, tak reti malu jugak. Go away pun susah sangat ke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Semakin hari, semakin melebih, i dont know what to call you, bcs i dont have the right to do so. so i respect you, but you dont respect me at all. siap buat walpaper gambar dd. sweet nak mampus lah k? K memang aku ni tunggul, sbb aku respect kau, and aku bukan jenis perempuan yang perang mulut je lebih. tapi semakin hari, kau semakin melebih, ya allah, memang menguji kesabaran. then pura2 baik, dah tahu third party tu salah sama sekali, tapi buat bodoh je. you know he is somebody's but hmm. aku taknak cakap apa2. this is holy month. semoga kau rasa. and cuba ada perasaan sikit. thanks, bye. f u

Only Allah knows what i went through during Ramadhan. This precious month has shown a lot of things, how people, it teaches me not to believe anyone but yourself. Thank you Allah :')

I know You always heard me, and plan the best for me, I thank You for everything. this things, i only shared with Nurfatin Atikah binti Nordin, she knew how i felt..

She has given me a lot of opinion, and i accept it wisely. i dont know why i am so stupid for trusting everyone so quickly. Enough is enough. He broke my trust. and it can never be healed. Thats it. I just let things happen. I accept.. Ya Allah give me strength. i believe someone who has been betrayed, there is qada' and qadar. Time heal everything. I hold that.

*MAN DOWN

Third party.

you know what that means in a relationship. nobody want that to happen. mungkin ini takdir tuhan for me. i accept it strongly. i thank God for her present. i finally realised and at least learned something. it hurts like motherfucker hurts, but yeah i'm fine. you know what i do? i hold back. everything. it is not my thing to like, burst everything to evryone. nah, i just did what i did those days. hold hold back as i could. Insyaallah. you know what my dream is? nak pergi Mekah. nak sangat, kalau ada duit nak sangat buat umrah anf feel the most calm situation and environment to be in this world. ada sesiapa nak bawak I tak? haha perasan. duit pun tak ada, ilmu pun tak cukup lagi. kalau ada okay gakkkk. hahah. joking, i just made tempura prawn, tapi still tak jadi and fed up this is my fifth attempt tau! urgh pastu terendam tangan dalam minyak. terbaik! bye assalamualaikum! :)

I'll show the prettiest girl and inspiring girl ever

I know right she is so beautiful inside and out. for those who knows her, don't tell her that i stole her pictre please i didnt mean to hurt anything. just wanted to say how a young girl can be so polite. Suka sangat cara dia pakai! She made me want to dress the same way..

everything is plain bullshit. i need someone, yes. like my brother, he always there for me, but today hes not here. and the world is raining now, so heavily just like my tears..
you know why i am being so emotional now? nobody knows. i know my soul is empty. I'm not a good muslim, thats why i feel that. so sorry if i hurt anybody.

you know what hurts the most? Standing there, watching others happy, while i am not. I hate stalking and get hurt all alone while the person dont even know this. haha. am i stupid for feeling this? i am sure you all have been in my shoes. maybe, both physical and mental are still taking place in me. i know it is a part and parcel of being adolescent. but they caused havoc in me.it can be unbearable!
maybe i think too much.
I know "love" is just a feeling, you can make it fade away, your journey is still far away, syuhada. be strong. you'll get this through. Ya Allah, thank you for always being here with me. I can do this. tonight is just a hormonal changes. nonsensical! okay i'll stop here. thank you for reading. even if i have readers.

I dont know what should i give as a present for mothers day. She wanted a coach bag which cost me RM700 and the world knows i can't afford it now, maybe next year. it breaks me down to see her smiling everytime she saw the bag. i can even cry... i'm sorry mom. i promised you, you worth this.